Soo much to say 🙂

To remember everything I think about and wanted to discuss is impossible. But while I'm sharing pictures and writing "lite smått"(little small), I'll probably remember. One step at the time 🙂. Haha, one of the children I was living with this summer. Was so cute one time. Because I did walk out doing things at the yard and she followed me everywhere I went (4years old). Then we where trying to come around the house. The problem was that it recently had rained, so the soil, became mudd and somebody where building their house, just next to the house we lived in.

So there where no space to walk, since they had dugg, to build the foundation of the new house. I walked on the ground close to our house but half way, a table thing stood. The children then walked on the bricks of the new house to get passed it. But I don't trust my balance, since I was hit by a car. (Sure when I was working out, it became normal again. But now I've not used my musscles regularly in many many years)..

Anyway Shilah saw that I was concerned, I probably said something about not wanting to walk up there, on the bricks. But she just told me; tek time.. Haha She was dead seriouse, but I'm more careful nowdays anyway. Since I know what it feels like to hurt yourself and it is very unessecery to create problems that don't exist. So I walked around on the next side of the house instead...

See I've told you that Matthew is crazy. He used to climb up on an empty barell, with a heavy bucket, filled with several liters of water. And then he would climb up on the roof, that was like above his shoulders and fill a barell with like 14 buckets of water (Because he built a system to get water to his kitchen and shower).

People that fall down from roofs could break their limbs and if you fall bad you can die. So I don't consider it worth the risk, but I mean thank you for enabling us to shower... He is like a superman, because he also climbed on the roof. Every day, in order to connect the electricity.

I feel so very sick, that's why I just ate what I could manage for breakfast. The bigg "cookie", is made of Corn and Chiaseeds. Those grow in South America and is very healthy.

I love to deal with nature and what is reality. In Jamaica, they don't call that fruit an avokado. They say that it is a pear... See I trust that nature is good 100%, so I will eat those 3 little fruit now. All thoe I had them since new years eve. Fruit never made me sick and I've ate alot. Ohh I put the roots from the sallad in the window and watered it, because I know that it can grow up again. I never tried that before and I don't have the strenght to go plant the roots in a bigger pot, with better soil. At the moment. So lets see wah gwaan. Unfortunately, I left the pots I didn't use in my old apartment. But honestly it is very much smarter, to plant out the herbs you buy at the store in a bigger pot. Because then the herbs will keep growing, so you have that spice all the time. Instead of having it to cook one dish! A mad man would buy food, when he don't have to.

Now one hour later I will eat those 3 orange fruits/berries, and drink a glass of water (with an ironpill :S). See you can loose alot of blood when you give birth and you can die. So why not prevent it?

Oh I wanted to talk about economy, since it is very important. Almost everybody are dependent on money and now we are living in recession. That mean that we are facing a mild "lågkonjunktur", which leads to less people getting employed. More people loose their jobs. Less products are being made= the food get more expensive. So people are more careful of what they are buying, since they don't have the same amount of money as they usually have to spend. Leading to that the money, loose their value. Suh countries have historically tried to print more money, so that people could afford the rasing costs. But that is a disaster.

Look on how 1000 dollars in Jamaica could only buy one (cheap) meal. Whilst a 1000 krown in Sweden could buy you a reused bike. The money loose it's value, when you don't take care of the economy. So most governments realized, but nowdays in for instance Sweden. Many many people take loans, to be able to buy everything and keep the same lifestyle that they where having before. That is not wise. I think that it is the exact same thing, to print more money and to buy things on credit. The money really do not exist, but your dept do...

It is absolutely horrible, that people follow individuals who lack sense. Everybody could take nice pictures. Most people could buy extravagant items, on credit. Making you believe that they are living an easier, better life than you. I don't follow any "influencers", since i've looked one time. Seeing that they are a "bagga" fools. Do not listen to anybody. I am somebody too, but I would not advice anybody to completely rely on others statements. For so many reasons. Which I don't have the possibility to explane right now. Feel like vomiting, non stop. Water, or as they say in Jamaica, WATAh... Tiad mi tiad...

But in Jamaica the people in power, like the government and police. Or the parents, reason just like children. Thats a consequense of bla bla... Mi cyaa tap tink frm a sober mi sober... Lata

1 kr equal 14,96 jmd! Our money lost it's value, but apparently the JMD lost more. When I was there 2011 I think it was like 1kr=13 jmd.

I am not a Christian, because I don't follow man. I dislike medicins, as much as I dislike drugs. It is the exact same thing. Only difference is the classification. Doctors have decided that it is better that people are addicted to a syntetic drug called Subuxone, that they give out for free, as pills or long term effect band-Aid's. That's just as bad, as a "macka"...

Whatever. I have taken the covid vaccine 3 times, because I had too. I know from experience that I can not get sick, if I don't choose to. (You have to stop washing your hands, be around sick people, walk outside with too little clothes. Or eat food that is lacking nutrients) Plus I trust in God, so if he felt that I should get covid, I don't mind it. And my previouse experiences in life, thought me that no drug gives you life. Sure they gave me Morphine, as I was not able to do anything, exept feeling pain. But that was a little amount, that they gradually stopped giving me. As I gained back consiousness.

In the case with my ex, they gave him more and more Morphine. Then they told him that he needed to start with Methadone instead, to get ridd of his pain. So he died.

But I took the vaccine, so that they would allow me to see my daughter. Then I took it because I wanted to be allowed to travel to Jamaica, sometime in the future. Actually one time when I tried to take a plane from Montego Bay to America, they asked me to show vaccination proof, which I had. Luckily it was in Swedish and I showed it breifly, so they never saw that it had expired.. And after 1,5 years I took it again, since the midwife reccomended it. Plus I read that the disease is still spreading.

See these flowers will become blue 😀 and smell very nice. One bathroom rugg, became wet when I showered yesterday and is still wet, so it smell a bit strange now. I should wash it with vinegar, to get ridd of it. Plus the wash cloths, to make them more soft. I would not run a machine, without filling it and I could wash my cheets. Since a fruit stain came on it... (I've read that the vinegar will remove stains, if you mix it with water and have the fabric in the fluid. Some hours. Before you wash it). So it is completely unessecery and destructive to use bleach or manmade products, in real life! Cha

Can't believe how a cleaning lady gave me a bottle of bleach. She knew I am pregnant. So whyy would I let the child breath in and have contact with poison?!

I think it looks pretty still... See I really don't know how to describe "my style". I do love Janis Joplin and Bohemian style, in a way. But I absolutely hate drugs and dirt. I mean all stains are not dirty. Food is actually a much better dye, than manmade chemical colours! Why do it still exist humans that don't realize, that we ourself create alot of, if not all, diseases? I think that I could be described as a mixture between a Bohemian Princess and a Bohemian Hiphoper. That love to talk Patois and Jah 😀

I love the drugusers, because they are skinny. But I don't like them since they act in unsmart ways. I thought it was very interesting to observe how they are acting, but it is truly horrible and unreasonable, fi true.

This night I saw a Meth addict and she was moving as if she was obsessed. Nothing about her movements where normal. Yea I should see if I could find a video of that.. But there is thousands of videos of "high" people..

Yes, fast forward to 7,52 if you wish to see who's obsessed by the devil...

My ex, that was on some drugs, where laying on my belly. Strangeling me. It was very clear that it was not him using his body or brain! Because when he was sober, he was kind and thought before he acted. Plus you could see how his soul was no longer in controll. He had a blank stare...

And nowdays the scientists have created a syntetic opioid named Fentanyl. Which is between 20 and 4000 times stronger, than Heroin. So that kills the users in an alarming rate. I've met two men, that died of Fentanyl. (And I myself, that where forced to take it one time. Puked my guts out before my brain passed out. My body just managed to lay down and it was a horrible feeling). Opioids are the quickest way to hell.

That so many people use drugs, is really tragical and it almost makes me cry. I've sat next to men that have been using drugs and it is not a pretty sight! You can't even be sure that the last breath he took will be followed by another one, so I'm still in a kind of chock. Several years from those moments 😭

And what in this world do societies do to save the life of these humans? Absolutely nothing. Instead they provide them with clean needles, bandages and stronger drugs, so they don't have to share them! A disaster! (Oh they say that they do that, so that the hospitals wouldn't have to take care of them, when they get diseases like Aids etc. And that they cost the society alot of money)..

So what they really are doing, is making sure that these individuals die from their usage. My ex died by taking the exact same drugs the hospital gave him every day, when I met him. Metadon, Lyrica and Iktorivil.

The person that sold him the drugs called me, a week after his death and told me that Ra owed him money! Pussyclaat I got bex inside and politely told him that Ra had died 😥. (He was connected to Hells Angels and I where too weak)

I really wanted to call the police and tell them who sold him the drugs, but I didn't. Since they are not my friends. They never ever returned my calls, they didn't even let me see him. I came to his apartment as soon as they told me to, but they refused to let me in! They gave me the cats and told me I could see him at the hospital. But when I called the hospital they told me that I wasn't allowed to go there, without the police. So I called the police several times a day, many days a week and left a message and my number on their voice mail. But they never answered me! Obviously I did this while I was devastated and felt like dying.

But you see. Since I was with him, who they concidered a "gangster", they where happy to get ridd off him. They assumed that I was in the same way and did not do anything, to show respect. They did not tell me anything. It was the drugdealer that told me, what my ex bought! I know his name and how he looks and where he could be found.

But the police are not interested in solving crimes or helping them that actually needs help. They want the criminals to be violent, so that they could arrest them. Hence having work to do. They never ever gave me any help, all thoe I have had plenty of bruises, soars, swollen lips, my hair pulled out and a broken nose. Which I've shown them. Including bloodstains on my wall and I have told them exactly what had happened. But they simply don't care.

Instead they told me that I should go to the hospital, so that they could document my injuries. I was hurt and wanted to sleep, after 12 am.. But apparently the pictures, taken by the police, is not enough in court... The jury don't even consider what you have told the police about the event, because in Sweden it is what you say in the courtroom, that matters! (Because they are not interested in having the government paying for keeping someone in prison) instead they want him free, so he can commit more crimes and give them more work. I mean all the crimes he commited and they just gave him punishments to pay the taxagency. Which I did for him, since he didn't have any money. I never got any damages. I asked the police to remove him from my house, but then my ex told them that he lived in the same house, and instead of checking with the taxagency where he was written. They simply trusted his words! Haha, all thoe the welfare payed for him living in his apartment, plus gave him more money than others get. So that he could get drugs. Same time. He went to the meeting with the secretery there, high on Heroin and he told her. But she just did everything she could, to give him more money...

This society do not help, the victim at all.

I asked him to leave my house many many times, but he refused to. Instead of helping me to remove him. They told me that I where not alowed to live there anymore 😵

So I've had plenty of reasons behind my statement, when I say Bun Babylon. But that only led to them taking my daughter and locking me up 🤢. Phh. This system is not good, for the people that don't work for the government. But it is better than in Jamaica, because we have food, no mosqitos or holes in our roads. Most things work good and it is not hot like hell here neither... So ofcourse I prefer to live here, rather than there...

When you are viewed as a citizen of this society, you get all types of help. But if you have dreadlocks and "par wid" people who are causing problems. They do everything they possibly can, to destroy your life. Sad but true...

This system, is like a circus. They have no idea about what they are doing. In Denmark, they even have rooms where the drug users could come and take Heroin. And get the injection done by a nurse. (Somebody told me, haven't looked it up). But I know that in Sweden and America etc, the drug users could go to a hospital and drink syntetic drugs, stronger than Heroin! How could anybody really think that's a wise step to take? Can't you understand that enabling a drughabbit is waay worse, than stopping it? Phhh... Haha, no they say that if they wouldn't give them the drugs for free. The users would commit crimes to get them!

A person that is using drugs can not even bother to stand up, when he is without them. And don't you think that it actually would be better, if they would have to put in an effort to try to get them?

I've met plenty girls younger than me, who used Opioids and where prostitutes, not thinking straight! This world is filled with problems, caused by ourself! Cha

Woeeeiiii 🥰. Give thanks... It's sweet potatoe and Quinoa "steaks", with tomatoe, radishes from new years eve (still crispy not smelling bad, since they have been in the fridge), leek and chilihummus... The container of hummus only costed 13kr, since they where expiering in early February. So they sold it 30% cheaper. It is much more healthy to make it yourself still and it have sufficiant protein in it, since it's made of chickpeas!

Why are people thought in school that meat is necessery? I didn't eat any milk products to this meal. I fried the "steaks" in rapseed oil so the fat will help me absorb.. It both tastes and smell wonderful 🥰. Soo why would I eat meat, that taste awful?!

I ate 6 dates for dessert 😀. They tasted so nice, combined with the leek flavour that was still in my mouth. Just like that Swedish candy I ate as a child. They tastes like how a Violet smells, beautiful purple flowers...