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​så sviken har jag aldrig känt mig. När både ens mamma, och alla ens systrar. Brutit kontakten med dig. Utan att jag har gjort dem någonting. De tror att jag är psykiskt sjuk.                   Faktum var att jag inte fick några pengar att leva på. Efter två veckor fick min ”förvaltare”  skuldkänslor och köpte tre rätter med indisk mat, vegetariskt som jag gillar. Hon frågade faktiskt mig vad jag ville ha för mat. Men sen dess har hon vägrat ge mig någon mat, för hon sa att hon inte var någon hemtjänst! Ge mig mina pengar, så kan jag ta hand om mig själv! Visst jag hade lite mat hemma i skåpen att laga, men jag bestämde mig för att jag inte ville laga den utan köpa utemat en gång om dagen. Jag har en hög inkomst, så jag kan göra sånt. Jag ber ingen att gå till restaurangen åt mig, jag vill och kan gå själv. (Även fast jag var så svag, efter att inte ha ätit på två veckor). Jag var helt apatisk, när min ”förvaltare” slutade ge mig pengar....

​yesterday I ate half a pizza all day n the day before that I ate the other half. And the day before that I ate one vegan sausage. The day before that I didnt eat non atall. So I’m hungry. Shit like a week ago I even puked Because of my hunger. So Why don’t I buy food you might ask? Well it’s because I have an evil sister that actually went to court n claimed that I couldn’t deal with my money. Because I sent my money to different men. As if that would be a problem?! I know that it is the healthy people that help others n devils that keep the money for themselves!    Then she also claimed that I was sick and locked me up in a mentalinstitution! She is really evil! At the mentalinstitution they gave me ETC, that is electricity to my brain!!!! That made me loose every ability I had, I did not know anything again! I didnt understand anything when I got home so I went back to the lock up! It took me 11 months to heal my brain after that trauma! Because I know how to heal myself fr...

U no dun kno wah i waah. ja mi seh. ja mi waan. da place ya full a fuckry. Dem nah go mek mi kill Iself. Dem nah guh mek I do a ting. Mi gud mi gud. But sry dem cyaa get.

​oh so my teeth turn all yellow, also because of the cigarettes I’m smoking! But that don’t matter, who should I try to impress with white teeth?! I will sing the love of the most high forever more. /T’Jean… His new single really sweet… I need more coffey again but I have a Nocco Careibean flavour… I just ate three persian candies (saffran and honey) and one Swedish bun.. So Im all full now at 14:23… PM So I’ll just listen to some more music (with the cutest man alive, Ras I) Dats y mi bun mi ganja its good fi mi nerv. Bun di Ganja every night and day/ Mavado

​ It is strange to me that boys think that they are men, even thoe they are the exact oposit.  Ravi was a real man, Jason is a real man. Nikos is a real man Jonny too. Matthew also. So leave me alone. You are boring me. What a perfect man. He is the sexiest man on this planet!  A man that is lovely make a woman laugh, not at silly little jokes but for reality. The video of our conversation is too long but I think I have it on Facebook zeen.... I love him...

​See I woke up some hours ago but I can’t leave my bed because then ”My sister” say that I’m psycotic and call the hospitals claiming I’m sick! I can’t go to bed late neither because she thinks that I’m sick. She don’t seem to understand that I go to bed when I want to and wake up when I’m not tierd. She is very foolish. Oh I’m posting things online, for your information I created my first blog 2008, because I decided to help Jamaica. The blog was called Godhelpjamaica.blogspit.com But I took it away since people ”my family” was complaining about what I was writing. Then my other sister also claims that I write alot of stuff that I’ll later regret when I’ sick. Excuse me but do you know how much work I put in on my online apperance? KSMT you guys don’t think. And lets not mention my mom that thinks that I’m so sick so she stopped answering her phone. Than was ofcourse after my ”sister” tried to forbidd me to go to the store myself. No she told me that I have to go to the store with mom...