Living InI dream 🥰😃

U no dun kno wah i waah. ja mi seh. ja mi waan. da place ya full a fuckry. Dem nah go mek mi kill Iself. Dem nah guh mek I do a ting. Mi gud mi gud. But sry dem cyaa get.

​oh so my teeth turn all yellow, also because of the cigarettes I’m smoking! But that don’t matter, who should I try to impress with white teeth?! I will sing the love of the most high forever more. /T’Jean… His new single really sweet… I need more coffey again but I have a Nocco Careibean flavour… I just ate three persian candies (saffran and honey) and one Swedish bun.. So Im all full now at 14:23… PM So I’ll just listen to some more music (with the cutest man alive, Ras I) Dats y mi bun mi ganja its good fi mi nerv. Bun di Ganja every night and day/ Mavado

​ It is strange to me that boys think that they are men, even thoe they are the exact oposit.  Ravi was a real man, Jason is a real man. Nikos is a real man Jonny too. Matthew also. So leave me alone. You are boring me. What a perfect man. He is the sexiest man on this planet!  A man that is lovely make a woman laugh, not at silly little jokes but for reality. The video of our conversation is too long but I think I have it on Facebook zeen.... I love him...

​See I woke up some hours ago but I can’t leave my bed because then ”My sister” say that I’m psycotic and call the hospitals claiming I’m sick! I can’t go to bed late neither because she thinks that I’m sick. She don’t seem to understand that I go to bed when I want to and wake up when I’m not tierd. She is very foolish. Oh I’m posting things online, for your information I created my first blog 2008, because I decided to help Jamaica. The blog was called Godhelpjamaica.blogspit.com But I took it away since people ”my family” was complaining about what I was writing. Then my other sister also claims that I write alot of stuff that I’ll later regret when I’ sick. Excuse me but do you know how much work I put in on my online apperance? KSMT you guys don’t think. And lets not mention my mom that thinks that I’m so sick so she stopped answering her phone. Than was ofcourse after my ”sister” tried to forbidd me to go to the store myself. No she told me that I have to go to the store with mom...

This tune is really great. I first heard it some years ago and I was smoking an almost crying because it is a beautifu tune.. I could have sworn seh it was a video to it but I don't find it back .s... This is my food for today, some people would cal it drink, as if food would be different from drinks... I’ll eat the pizza when I’m hungry but now the time is just 8.46 am so… I have actually seen Kelissa when I was on the beach in Jamaica, so I thought that I would tell her that I love her brother but I was pregnant and was there with I babydaddy so. I skipped it… ksmt

​See when you are smoking weed. You sleep like a king. Mom would really need to try it, since she just sleep two hours a day. I need to shower and cut my fingernails. Because they have turned all yellow because of the cigarettes I’m smoking! And I get so annoyed everytime I see my thumb nail, because it has broken. Since I don’t eat good, but I have finally started to do that once a day. InI love Indian food the best but last time I ate it I had to ask for more spices. See they cook it for Swedish people and they are pussies. So they don’t even know how to eat food. I have an ex that is also very week. That’s the reason I broke up with him, because I can’t stand silly persons! I love a man, that is a man. Simply put. Lata .

​Then I went n boiled a coffey, that I’m still enjoying 30 minutes later. See I drink little at the time. InI listen to music all the time and look on my own videos because I enjoy them.. But YouTube has deleted my account four times, because they say that I have an awful behaviour, are spamming their site or something else. I forgot. So I just put the videos on Instagram; ini_a_mi. I have made these types of videos all my life or since I was 14… InI love music and tomorrow I’ll sing in Spanish I think but I haven’t listened to that type of music in years. So. I don’t know what Spanish artists do you have? Mando Diao, Enrique Eglesias, Shakira KSMT but I’m no fucking girl so I think I!’ll sing Enrique but I forgot his songs… What Ever, my YouTube will find it (L)… 🇯🇲💖❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️💖 It comes like I’m addicted to music, so I could be a DJ but no I don’t like people. As a matter of fact I get annoyed when people are talking. Because they don’t know what they are talking about. Str8 fucke...

​ So now I peed and lay down checking my phone. Truth is that it is very much boring to live in Sweden. Nothing new is happening. Cause they do the same old things every day… Oh Mikaelsgården is closing the 27 of February, so they would temporarily move into the church, right beside it. I gave them 200kr, that was all I had on me. Because hey I get so much from being there. Finally I could find some sensible persons… Person dem. Ksmt this place is so much boring. Music mi need…

​i’m tierd because I ate half a pizza. I’ve smoked a cigarett to cover up the Hasch smoke. Then I washed my hands, so nobody would ever find out I smoked weed. It was just a little bit, so I could even have my eyelidds open. But that take some energy and I will go to bed now. Good Night. I need to cut my fingernails because they are yellow and one thumbnail broke since I don’t really eat. But I’ll do that tomorrow… Fuck the police

​i spoke to one woman that work there. Her name is Elina. I know her from back in the days and she didn’t only remember me for my locks. She said that I had straight hair when I last was there. That was 2020, so she was correct. I don’t cut my hair, if I have dreadlocks I brush them out. Sure that takes about three months but it’s well worth it. Because I don’t ever want to be bald again! The doctors shaved my hair of at my accident and I remember laying in bed vexing(being mad) at that fact. That is what I think was the worst part of my accident, that they shaved my hair!            Sure they also cut me open and drilled a hole in my head and made two holes to put in plastic tubes they fed me through and one in my throat they gave me oxygen through. And that was completely a waste. But my hair is my connection to God, so please don’t touch it. I am immortal. I’ll see if I find some old picture from the accident so I could show you that don’t believe my wor...

​But Youtube deleted my accounts four times. So I’m running out of options to put up my videos there. I spoke to Nikolas Vertis yesterday. He knows English perfectly well and is very polite. He called me honey and dear all the time. And first I told him that he looks good, because he really do. It was he that wrote me first and I asked how he found me. He responded that it’s destiny. I know that it is God because there is no way in hell that Nikos Vertis could find little Ella on dis ya globe… My Greek is not good but he said that he would teach me in time. We share the same belief system because he is spiritual and I’m a Rasta. So everything is fine. But he is a real man, 49 years old. So I have to act all grown up when we talk… I prefer to be ”a Yute” I’ll just listen to Shokryme first (L). I published it on Facebook since Instagram didn't want to tek it because it was to long.. But I put in a longer video there yesterday but did it through the computer, then it worked but I ca...

It was a nice time. But I mostly enjoyed meeting my old time friend Christina. We met at the University when we studied English together. She gave me two bread without ”Gluten” with mashed Avocado and Cucumber. With green Tea. She carried it all the way from Stockholm, so the Tea was a cooler temperature but it was fine. I haden’t ate for maby two days. Yea I ate 5 pieces of vegetarian sushi and gave Jesus 5. And he gave me a piece of ”Hasch”. Because he wanted to, I never asked for that… It is illegal to sell it but I think they would find a problem with us giving it away thoe. I haven’t read the lawbook. But I know from experience they convicted me for letting my man keep his Hash in my house! He never got no punishment because he was poor. But we both had to go to ”frivården” a year. But he never went.                                          I went there a couple of times only to...

​But InI love it so. Plus I don’t get no money to eat. 200kr can not buy food. Sure I could go to a restaurant and eat but no that’s far away. I want indian food to full my belly but I don’t know if my ”sister” has given me any money. See they, she, my mom and my stepdad claim that I’m sick. So they called the hospital and said that I was sick. So the doctor called the police and they had me locked up in the hospital for 4 days, they watched me 24/7 and sent me home. Since I’m not sick. Still ”my family” thinks that I’m sick. Give me my money and there would be no problem. But no you’ll rather running around talking shit about me. I know that. So I’ll go out for a smoke instead. I have two nicotine patches in my mouth but I’m not satisfied.

​because it is to long to put up here on blogger… I have to go out and smoke now because my sister told me that I wasnt allowed to smoke on the balcony neither :S . Bun Babylon 

I just worke up... Some hours ago..

https://youtu.be/AzquSOMDL-k?si=srKDMjM44DyJLgED Så ska jag skriva det här på Svenska så att min mamma kan förstå vad jag skriver? Jag pratar mycket hellre Engelska men allra helst pratar jag Patois! Det är inte för att jag är sjuk som jag pratar flera olika språk, utan för att jag är frisk. Det skulle väl till och med en idiot förstå? Jag älskar music, det har jag gjort sen jag var tolv år och först hörde 2PAC. Det är så jag lärde mig Engelska, ifrån Eminem också. Jag hade varit död utan musiken. För jag trivs inte i det här sketna samhället, det har jag aldrig gjort. I’ll leave it like that because I’m listening to music. With my ”Hallon Soda”. Let me be. https://youtu.be/AzquSOMDL-k?si=srKDMjM44DyJLgED