Breathing and relaxing...

See, I just woke up. Went to the kitchen and got some dates and the rest of the Coffee, I didn't want for breakfast. Kept it in the fridge, cold Coffee taste ok... But man now I am exhaused. So I lay breathing, untill I can manage to eat this.

These dates come from Tunisia and they have removed the seeds. Yea they taste ok, but I like them from Iran more, because they are fresh and not dry.

The reason why I would never go back to Tunisia, is because they had animal heads and bodyparts at a store, by the street! 😰😭. Plus Africa is not Jamaica, so I just get disapointed.

I would like to meet, living lions and elefants, in the wild thoe. Also the tall, slim animals that look like me. In Swedish they are called 1 Giraff, 2 Giraffer. And I would also like to link up with an Orangutang, because they are pretty.

It is not my fault that my arms, look like Vybz Kartels own. In my brain anyway 😄.

   I have had a pen n pad, next to me in my bed. Most of the time since I was a teenager. 

See I don't like the taste of candy, but now it's an emergency. Because I would like to be able to go up and cook something. Later anyweh. The time is 1,20 pm now= 13.20 😊

I mean, the baby is bigg. So it feels like she rearranges my organs n man I'm exhausted. But I have to wake up sometime, to make food. Another problem these last weeks 38/39, is that even my arms are numb. Earlier it has just been my leggs. As I'm sitting down my ass gets numb too... 

   It can't be healthy to eat this much iron. 

My veins are more visible. As I stand up it can start to hurt even more. Nowdays it feels like the outside, is hurting. U kno.

Say that I forget about 85% of what I'm thinking, if some minutes past, right now 🙄. The reason for me mentioning this, is that I think it is interesting and it would be good to remember. Plus somebody else, might think twice.

I mean I never would have gotten pregnant with a Swedish man. But Jah kno, I had no choice. Because the youth is like 2 inches taller than me, slim, have dreadlocks and is brown. Like my stereotypical Jamaican.  Plus I have read that the child gets better, more resistant genes if the parents come from different countries.. So it was for Gods sake I did it 😄

That age on the banana makes it taste the best. Wonderful sweet, like only fruit could taste... It's completely mature and not brown at all, inside. (I kno my bananas) 😅 That should mean that it have more nutrients in it too, I guess... Actually this article claims that banana that are greener have more vitamin and minerals. But that the more yellow have different antioxidants and a thing that could prevent cancer... https://stegforhalsa.se/ar-det-halsosammare-att-ata-gula-eller-grona-bananer/

 Sesame cookies taste very nice. It tastes like one fruit I had in Jamaica, but I don't remember the name. Tamarind.

So beautiful.

I have very many pictures from this summer

Haha Matthew is like crazy. Because he... Mi no kno di werd but it's like he just screw, remove and replace things. Even if it is electricity. So I don't think that he is quite sane. Hihihe... He even lift heavy things and open the car and rearrange. A very strange behaviour indeed.

   This was in Negril, which is the best city in Jamaica. Because they don't have mosqitos and they do have some normal food, even a juice bar...

I just found a video from Manchester I forgot.

Aa 😃. Love your hair, everywhere...

This was in Montego Bay and I completely burned my skin that day, so it broke baad. They have some floating thing you can jump down from, but I had a problem with my currage, since I became more careful as I became pregnant... Unfortunately InI smoked, so I didn't feel when the sun was burning me :/... 

Oh u should have seen my face after some days... I have a picture somewhere and I look like I have been in a fire... The sun in Jamaica, is NOT nice...  And I don't use to wear sunblock. This was like right afterwards:

Oh yea my face swelled up as if I would have been fat. At first.

The picture below was taken 6 days afterwards!

My back is soo tense, so I would have to sit down in the shower now. I am soo warm!

Soon come... Haha. I must be crazy to still think that things would work, as normal. It is completely impossible for me to sit down on the floor and I would not be able to get up neither. It's quite funny that I shampooed my hair and washed it out. Then I was supposed to reach the conditioner, but I forgot, so I grabbed the shampoo again. Before realizing..  🙃

I'm uploading a video I forgot, from beautiful Jamaica..

MU is completely crazy. You know what he did one time? We was at some river, close to Falmouth. It was overshadowed with bushes and trees, but he still jumped in the water, maby 7 meters down... You where not able to see the bottom and in Jamaica they have crocodile and shark. Plus I don't trust that a sharp item, from a human is not under the water. So I would never jump down there.. U maad? 

Slept and woke up, so now the time turned 1am. Think I should go and eat something. Because I need to always be as prepared as I could be and I'm feeling sick because I'm hungry. The porridge only caused me to become hungrier 🤨. Jah kno.

I realized that some people actually could eat because they have a reason too. 😄 I think it is very much fun to express myself in a way that could be inturpreted in many ways. Because everybody thinks differerent and that is hillariouse, or how it spell 😆

Should stop doing that 😂

But to me others reactions is kind of interesting. Some times... Oh I should look and put up the pictures I want to, because now I've been 6 months in Sweden. Maby when the baby is sleeping? It's like I can not be surtan about anything now. I've read alot of people who couldn't sleep for more than one hour at the time. Because the child woke up every time 😐. Now that would not be too wanted hihi... It's like I laugh, when I can't bother explaining how I feel... I had a friend that called me a joker and that is quite true, I've often wished to make others happy.

But honestly, I don't ever think that I would trust another humanbeing again.

It is nicer to walk around in my world. Imagening, everything I could think of. I don't really know if others do that, but I know that most people don't speak their minds and say what they think of. I've tried that too, which only lead to depression.

Must brush my teeth and sleep back..