I'm optimistic 😀 Finally 🙂

So the doctor finally has told me to stop with the Quietapin. That mean that I've gotten back my energy. I sleep from 11 to 7.30 and I feel rested. I wish that I never went to the hopital and told them that I wanted to die. because I've been through hell last year. They have put me on so many different "medications". So I haven't been able to normally function. I mean, I haven't been able to leave my bed and later on my coutch! But finally, I'm going to Jamaica again 😀. Haven't been there since 2011! I tried to visit New York and Tunisia, but there is no place like home. It was 2008 in Spanish Town I washed my face and I saw the devinity of Jesus. I mean there is no other place in this world like Jamaica 😀. I'm still eating 2 Lithium, but I don't feel anything of that. It's a salt and I don't eat much salt normally. Today my daughter have her birthday, so I'm going there with some dried fruits. 1 because I don't want her to think that Babylon is what brings you joy. 2 because dried Papaya taste very nice 3 because she live in a very Babylonized home and got everything a person could have. I wish that Babylon could leave her alone, because it is her life they are desteoying. I remember the day she had lived for 21 days and I was breastfeeding like always. when 3 policemen held me and a welfare PUSSY, stole Elise 🥶. That must have been traumatizing for her too. Apparently the woman she is living with have told her that she comes from my belly but her heart. I have told her that she come from my belly, but of course she comes from my belief in God. I wouldn't have an abortion, all tho I had no wish to be pregnant and get a child. Before the last months of pregnancy. I gave birth and that hurt like I would rather be dead. She is my child so she is supposed to live with me. No question about that. But you see the pussies had a problem with my ex being a junkie and when I had proven in court that I never did anything wrong with Elise, they ruled that she couldn't move home to me, because they never knew if I would be sober or not! Fucking idiots, who in this world would drink or smoke weed, while they where taking care of an infant? The problem is my opinion about weed, because I know it do no harm. And it is illegal here, but alcohol is legal. I don't like alcohol because it is poison, that destroy lives! Jaah, wake up mi a wakeup. God bless you, bun Babylon. (thats another part, that I'm against the society they contribute to every day. I think I will move to Jamaica and get a child there instead. Because Matthew is a wonderful person) ZEEN 😃 Alla har rätt att bestämma hur den vill leva..