2day I would have to go to my child kmst!
Im here listening to music and doing my thing. But no I would have to go take the buss, if I want to reach my mother in time :S (She is driving me to my doughter daughter, because she wants to meet her)...
I don't want to leave my home. I just let the cats out and I have things to do online, so I don't want to go!!
I hate to rush and I don't want to put on my clothes ang go, because I want to drink my coffey and wait until the nicotine give me vybz thoe... A no dat mus appn b4 mi go?! I took the coffee with me and drank it on the buss, it was kool because the time of the trip took time :D..
Bless bless man CLarge this is bare greatnessI love the entire thing...I love you
We played, all the time, and jumped on her bigg trampoline... If I had her with me I would become fat(worked out9 and live active. But no dem(the society) rather have me laying down...
I carried her and jumped at the same time, she scremed and laughed a whole lot... (A video of that can be found later in this post)...
Yes Bob a dis.. Today is the first day I've heard this song.. Amazing, I thought I've heard all his songs already... Jump jump.. At first I didn't like it, but from it reach in the song I do..Me and Elise had a blast and she even fed me grass and I gave her some. I'm used eating only vegetables, so I'll eat grass with no problem. But Elise had ate alot of cake, buns and cookies before... So when we climed the trampoline again, she puked :P...
But I wiped that away and she started to jump again. Only problem was that I didn't have more energie, so I sat down. She told me: mamma hoppa, mamma hoppa. That mean mom jump, jump... So I told her I was sunbading and resting, leaning back... But I started to shake the place by leaning inside the floor and jumped up a bit, so she leaned over me and we jumped in that way a wile.. What a joy to see sweet togetherness. I love Bob Marley forever and I wish to meet him soon... In a fyssicall form... I don't believe in death... I've seen so many living dead during these last years and I know who can become living. Glad you became living Bob before ur body died... Because of Babylon who killed him, just like how they killed my man and have tried to kill me, all my life...
When Elise and I was on the swing, she sat on my belly and I layed down. Tiad mi tiad zeen (just slept one hour the night to yesterday so)... Whatever..
She leaned down on my chest and I told her that I had milk in there for her to eat earlier when she was born. So she started to eat on my tshirt :P. Then I told her, that I was a vegetarian that only eat vegetables and fruit, like banana and apple. Then she told me that I eat pears also. True true :P. When she was younger I bought a tshirt to her saying I eat fruit, not friends...
She is starting to become smart and if she lived with me I would make her very intelligent. That is very easy, when ur smart yourself zeen :P... Such a shame that she lives somewhere else. However, that's the best for me, at this moment in time. Because I don't want to change her dipers etc... ksmt She is apart of me and yadayada, but why would I want more work, when I am full of God already? I have to contribute to God, just like he told me in heaven...
I have a blog and a life to live also and it is better for the lady she is living with to have my child there. Because then she get an income from the welfare sector, in her town... Them that have never done a good job with this whole situation. They never ever investigated if I could take care of her but took her based on the fact that I had an EX that ate medicin1 Fucking idiots1 Better you kill yourself and let the real people live in peace. you know what they did? They actually wrote a rapport saying that somebody in the house I was living in in västerås (to get ridd of my ex) called them and rapported that I smoked so much all the time... Fucka dem. I never ever smoked before they took my child11 Maby when I was young but not then. PLUS I WAS NOT EVEN IN MY HOME MYSELF, SINCE THE WELFARE PEOPLE TOOK ME AND ELISE TO A INVESTIGATION HOME IN UPPSALA, THE DAY AFTER SHE WAS BORN!!!! FUCKING IDIOTS. I followed there because they said that I had to, or they would give my child an LVU DIRECTLY. (LVU IS A LAW THAT ABLES DEM TO MOVE HUMANS AND PUT THEM WHERE EVER THEY WANT TO!!!Since I knew I never did anything wrong with my child and was tierd affter eeing in labour for like 18 hours and her birth. I went with them... Looking back now I realize that I never should have. Because everything that home was for was to get false statements saying that I couldnt take care of her...
This is so horrible because swedes can not do their job. They will do just about anything to get an income and since alot of people are working for the welfare system in sweden they need people to "help". They have written about 100 pages of bare lies about me and my situation. For example they have stated that I have disabilities because of the accident I experienced.. Ok so then that would grant me some extra help with my child, don't it? But no they took her when she was just 21 days!
So I went to court. There they had a lawyer that never talked to me and the prosecutor was ment to represent my child1 As if she knew what my child wanted... Suck u muma horrible stupid loosers. Because hey even when I appealed their decission and brought in two witnesses, (the only persons that had actually seen how I interacted with my child). They told them that I never did anything wrong at all..
Guess what the pussies then said? In their verdict they said Even thoe Eleonor never did anything wrong with her child, it is best that they don't live together, because we can never know if Eleonor is sober!!! Fucking fools. I stopped drink alcohol when I was 21 years old! But these so called professionals, think that what they say is true... By now I understand that the people working in court also do that because they are interested in getting an income... And they also are very judgemental, just because I cared for my ex, who was an addict, earlier before I got a child. They assumed that I was not going to be a good mother?!!! How can that fact not tell you the exact oposit?!
All children I ever met absolutely love me, if i spend time with them.. So WHAT THE FUCK?! Fucking idiots... Living a life of assumptions. You are not so very smart. I wonder how you can put food on your table... Oh that's another thing they said.. The childnurse told them on Brogården that I dont remember but Brogården told the welfare that I was starving Elise because I wanted her to become skinny!!! Fucking fools and that is based on my statement that I think it is beautiful to be slim like a Jamaican... Fucking loosers... oh also when we went to the store the first time. I put Elise in the stroller and had a personel that was right beside us all time. He got a call and told me we had to go back to the house. I realized I had forgotten hisparrigus, (so since he was talking on the phone and I saw that elise was sitting still without problem) I asked a staff member in the store, where they had hisparrigus. He said it was just two shelfs away. So I decided to go get it, it took one minute and we checked out...
Guess what the pussyhole write in a rapport? He stated that I left my child alone in the store!!! Fucking pussies... And these fools (the rest of the society) actually believe what he said and not me when I explained exactly what have happened... You have to remember that I was devostated because they had taken my child.. I started to smoke cigarettes and could not even leave my bed to eat. I just layed down crying for like 2 weeks... Also count with the fact that I recently delivered a child, I was still bleeding during that entire month. So my brest got filled with milk even after they took her, and that started to hurt... Sincee noone then ate the milk.
So I called the hospital and they told me to get a breast pump and I got baggs I could store in the fridge for when my child came back... I had prepared everything for her. I even lived in a new apartment with daycare on the next side of the road. But the retarded welfare person then saw that I lived just beside a sea... So when they took us to brogården she asked me what I would do if elise ran and jumped in the sea, as if an infant can walk or run!! See they assume that I should be a retard because I've been hit by a car.. Because others that have experienced accidents are effected their entire lives. WTF.. Thats because you let the hospitals make you sick!!! They are very eager to get patients eating their medicins all there lives! So they prescribe drugs they put them on!! and say that they will feel better when they eat them!!! Fucking fools, the only thing medecins do is making your brain feel less of the reality. Now a feeling is there for a reason!!!!
Fuccking punks!!! What the fuck sbould I do? I do not enjoy life living amongst a bagga fools!!!
For instance this January 5 policemen all of a sudden entered my apartment! As if i ever would commit a crime. But they have rapports stating I'm a drug addict, based on the fact that I have been convicted for a drugg offence I'm not guilty of!
Bloodclaat ludacris little insignificant nobodies... (my man got medicins so that he could cope with the pain he was experienceing after being drove over by a buss!!! And I let him have his medecins with him, when he slept in my house!!! (The one I had to leave, because of the police that never let my man be). They too have to do absolutelky nothing to get their salary. They are just driving around solving non exsisting crimes... BLOODCLAAT
I DON'T FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF, HAVING HAD ALL THESE EVENTS HAPPENING TO ME. BUT I FEEL VERY SORRY FOR THE PEOPLE WITHOUT A BRAIN, LIVING AS IF THEY COULD DO ANYTHING RIGHT! IF I GET THE TIME TO I WILL SUE THE WHOLE SYSTEM AND GET ALOT OF MONEY... BUT SINCE THEY WOULD FORCE ME INTO HAVING A LAWYER AND WOULD EMPLOY A PROSECUTOR (TO LIE) AND A JURY (TO MAKE ASSUMTIONS AND LEAVE THEIR OPINION) I'M QUITE SURE THEY WOULD DO ANYTHING TO LIE AND NOT LOOK ON THE ACTUAL REALIZATION OF TRUTH I'VE HAD... ITS LIKE A BIG JOKE TO BE IN A COURTROOM. INSIDE MY HEAD IM LAUGHING ABOUT THEIR STUPIDNESS. SEEING THEM GWAAN LYK DEM KNOW ANYTHING OR IS TRYING TO SOLVE ANYTHING. THEY ARE JUST LIKE ACTORS AND TO ME THAT IS FUNNY.
IT'S THE FACT THAT I HAVE BEEN SO VERY POSSITIVE ABOUT MARIJUAna BECAUSE I'VE SEEN THE BENEFITS OF THAT MEDICATION, THEY HAVE CALLED ME A LIER FIRST AND FOREMOST I GUESS.... FOOLS MARIJUANA IS MADE BY GOD. DRUGGS AKA MEDICINS HAVE BEEN MADE IN FACTORIES OF THINGS STUPID HUMANS HAVE PUT TOGETHER. JUST LIKE ALCOHOL AND CARS AND THE REST OF THE SHIT HUMANS HAVE MADE!!! SUK U MUMA DISCUSTING CREATURES... Then they actually would claim that I'm the sick one, that is not nice to people... WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I BE NICE TO A FOOL THAT IS EVVIL?!
I am very possitive to Marijuana as a medication. Because I have seen the benefits of using it... I have been smoking weed some times a year for 20 years, but the knowledge of people who actually have been using the plant, are not kooked upon. insstead they trust old texts that somevbody wrote to get an income for himself1 FUCKING FOOOOOLS! DEAD!!!
Right now they also got an eight year old girl living there, so Elise have someone to play with. I don't know if that girl is eager to do it still but what ever.
The reason I'm kinda short in talking at this moment is because I want my nicotine. Because my Zyn are done. Sure nicotin is addictive but I'm no addict, so ofcourse I could go without it. However I don't want to. :P.. It's crazy how much weak person existing. (Or stupid). They actually believe what doctors tell them. Doctors might have studied for many years and learnt about bodyly functions. But I have lived and learneD about everything existing. I know about anything. Mostly druggs, Jamaica and God LIVING A HAPPY LIFE still. But that is all I have to know about also.... zeen...
I need to check if I have any money left, to get the Lift batches, to put in my mouth. LIFT MEANS TO LIFT UP YOURSELF AND THAT IS A SUITABLE NAME U ZEET... I speak more English than swedish actually, all thoe I'm living in Sweden. But I mostly talk to myself, god and my jamaican friends online.. Because right now I've been without a phone for about a month... Thank God. It feel so nice to not, have people calling you. Because that is something annoying me. Why would anybody contact anyone else, if they didn't have some interesting information to share?
A bad mi bad.
not evil in any way but I'm bad at anything I'm doing.
I don't know if u use that expression in america or where ever. But I'm Jamaican so mi bad nuh Rass...
I have became brown now, because I was in the sun for 40 minutes yesterday and One hour today and since my skin has been inside for soo many years I'm kinda white and not used to it. That is why I look almost orange on the pictures we took :D...
I took a whole bunch of those...(With my mothers phone). So I will have to wait untill she can transfer them to me...
I also asked Elise if she would like to live with me and my cats and she STRESSED A YES. meaning LOUDLY SAID.. I want her to live with me also, because I have a daycare maby 100 meters away and plenty forest in my surroundings still, we could play in u zeet.
I ate a bun and some chokolate cake over there and two cups of coffee, so I'm full. I don't need to eat anything more. Then I would feel sick... I don't want to become anorexic or bulemic... I refuse to eat more time, since I don't want to eat, but it's not that I wish to become skinnier, like they do... I can eat a whole lot if I want to and it taste good, but I would never eat so much to be able to puke. Since I'm not ludacris ksmft! It do not feel nice to do so and i could controll myself perfectly fine in otherways. So I really don't untderstand about eating dissorders...
If I could be anything but a perfect human, I would become a junkie, because that's more me. But I'm not interested in drugs or fleeing the scene of reality. I see no need of doing that.
I feel really sorry for the people that are not satisfied with life. That's so strange to me. What a waist of time1 Ksmt... It is easy to be smart but not in all situations, (because I really get fed up with others). I would rather be alone. Thats the reason I went from the beach yesterday because people where talking/screaming and playing awful music... Only my music I wanna hear, because thats all that sound good. Not emelie autumn or amy winehouse but reggae tr8888. Bob Marley is the best man to ever exist and my man was borned 1980 in June, sO i GUESS bOB CAME BACK TO EARTH IN A NEW BODY WITH HIM... Lol i never ment to make those letters bigger, it just happened by itself.. Bye bye.
A Lift time now... must check if I have money and i hope so I want dark chokolate, that's healthy and everything, a bit too much sugar thoe.. But I don't care, it's not like I'm fat :P... I would call myself skinny because I'm very slim.. But I'm not mager...
People that are addicts are really stupid because they honestly believe that they have to take drugs to be able to survive. They don't understand that their life get worse by always having to stress about getting a new fix.. stupid dem stupid.. Ravi was the sweetest man I ever met, but he considered himself an addict, because some doctors had fooled him into becoming one. They told him he would have to take drugs all his life because of the pain. And gave him strong medicins. There is absolutely no different in illegal drugs and legal medicins. They are the exact same thing... Still humnans are such punks that they actually believe there is a difference with medicins and illegal drugs.
The police officers actually would take the drugs if you don't have any recete, whilst they would let you have them if u could prove u have it a prescribed :S.. Mother fucking loosers and fools. I absolutely hate all police and guards etc... Discusting evil people should die and let us happy, healthy and loving people live. To much trouble in this world, becaue you keep those that would ahve died by natural causes and kill them that should have been living... Me, my best friend and my husband had all three been hit by cars!!! Suck u muma discusting piggs that are contributing to the madness of this society. You choose politicians to lead and decide over your life, since you are tooo lazy to decide over things for yourself!
Mother fucking loosers that are forcing me and everybody else to live an awful life... No one with brains would ever be wanting to contribute to madness u zeet... Crazy unuh crazy and the way you are living is making it worse. You eat dead meat so that you could get sickness and infections into your body and you will die eventually... Stupid yuh stupid... Punks... Chase dem crazy bawldheads out of town...
I absolutely love both of these songs. I could have written every lyric of Robert Nestor Marleys songs, because I feel the exact same... I love him. Gage also but he chat to much compared to me. I like to be silent. Because I'm talking to God, all the time...Bless bless bless i love you... When I die I cant wait untill linking up with you and Ravi my baby (L)... I don't want to live without him. That life would be such a waste of time... the money i would have to check yes bye bye...
I'll fix the text tomorrow... 12 am now so
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