Living InI dream 🥰😃

 Livet får mig att må dåligt. Vill inte göra någonting. Vill inte åka till någon. Jag har sett till att vara ute och gå lite idag, men ingenting kan få mig att må bra igen. Asså jag är skadad, och jag vägrar göra någonting. Saknas viljan är det inte mycket att göra. Addi är som en dröm, men jag är fast i verkligheten...  De ger mig 100 mg Quietapin, varje dag. Det är en låg dos och injektioner med Risperidon varannan vecka. Det leder till att jag i praktiken inte mår ett dugg bra. Jag är orkeslös hela tiden och yes, jag är självmordsbenägen. Pallar inte mer... Vill inte vara inneliggande på en avdelning, men jag gör ju hellre det än att vara död...  Den här artikeln skrev Naturskyddsföreningen i Landets Fria, den handlar om Sveriges första insektsfabrik och hur de vill få oss att äta insekter. Det känns ju inte något aptit retande, inte för mig som bara äter fisk, ägg och mjölk, ifrån djuren. Sveriges största insektsfabrik – med hållbarhet i fokus Nils Österström tror att...

 I have changed my life, so I don't really have the time to wright here. I been feeling as if I don't have anything to say. But I do and it is really important someone wright the truth. However, I really don't wish to wright in Patois, because most people don't understand that and I'm with a Greek n Swedish man now, so it don't make any sence I talk with a boken English accent. I feel good now days because me and Addi laugh a whole lot :).. Later, a next day... I've took the second shot of covid vaccine yesterday. So I have fever today. I woke up at 1,20 am and couldn't sleep for an hour. Because I was so cold, so I reached for a blanket.. Now I'm at the hospital to take another shot, with "my medicine". They now say that I would have to take it every other week. Originally they said once a month. They are crazy, believing I shouls take any medicine. From the beginning they wanted me to pay for it also and it is really expensive too.. KSMT ...

 Den handlar utan att tänka på konsekvenserna. Den där någon, påstår saker som inte stämmer överens med verkligheten. I den grad, att jag är den som får handskas med förödande konsekvenser. Hela denna sommar har jag varit inlåst och legat på en sjukhus säng. Det har lett till att jag haft SJUKT ont i ryggen. Har inte ens kunnat stå upprätt.   Någon påstod i juni, till sjukvården att jag inte sover. Det var en ren lögn jag både sov och sover mer än gemene man. Den påstod även att jag inte betalar mina räkningar. Det var en fet lögn, med tanke på att jag betalat ca 40 000 extra, i avgifter. Under denna vår. Sen sa den att jag inte äter. Jag åt frukost, lunch och middag, var eviga dag. Nu i efterhand har det kommit fram att personen tyckte att jag var för smal. I beg to differ, jag var smal, men det är vackert. Jag får väl se ut som jag vill, vem fan är du att se till så att jag blir tvångsmatad?! Jag hade inga som helst problem med att ta hand om mig själv. Så sluta göra al...

I will write this post when I have time. Now I must wake Addi up because time is twelve pm! Bob Marley is the best man ever. His music is wonderful. I only have one problem with Satisfy my soul. Because it sometimes comes in the end of Rock my boat but not always. I have to try and find it, because it is GREAT... He doesn't sing the right song.. I'll keep on looking.. All I found is the rock my boat version 😑 The one I'm looking for he sang; satisfy my soul baby, satisfy my soul. Satisfy my soul little darling, satisfy my soul. Then I dont remember the rest right now, but I know the melody... "ksmt" how annoying...  I finally found it for the first time in several years :). "Give thanks n praise"! So what was I going to say now again? I'm traveling to Västerås today to meet the welfare that brought away my child. "KSMT'. That event was awful, the lies they told afterwards and their evil ways following, have got me to really loose my faith i...

 See music with base is my thing. A dat mi luv baad 😃 It is not my fault that Jamaicans make the best music. That InI too too looovvveee! This clean version sounds good, but I'm used to the raw one. Sounds great but it might be a little rude lol... Da bes tune evah!! Eeeeh 😀✌🏼 I should really talk about the unjustice happening to me. I have been locked inside a hospital all summer, based on the fact that I seemed upset and that the first doctor who met me claimed that my religious believes where sick! That is very much not true. Everybody who is not sick would be disturbed when 3 people walk in your home, without knocking, refusing to leave when you ask them to. Instead they claim that you are sick, based entirely on assumptions! Ofcourse that would make anybody mad! And then the police put on handcuffs and take you to a mental institution! If anybody would remain glad then, that person is crazy. Then the next day you had this doctor, talking to you. Only to find a reason to loc...

  I like it, even thoe it is so very calm. I think it is awsome that they've lifted the pyramids. It sparks my imagination still 😉. I am very happy because they have granted me my permission to leave from friday now untill sunday at 11.45 😀. I slept at home the night to yesterday also. I've been at home for like a month, but I've been forced to come back like once a day or every other day 😬. The doctors have now applied for being able to "treat me" while I'm living at home permanently. So that I am forced to go get a shot like every third week. What ever. The doctor on the open unit is very polite and from Greece, so I don't mind that. To prove that I'm normal because I have been my exact self from the end of last spring. "Mi nuh press button", that means that I don't live to make others happy by doing what they tell me to. That is the entire problem, some people don't like me to be myself. They'll rather that I spend time with...

  I still am as pretty. But I'm more fat... Extra kilos I will loose when I'm free... Fat do not look good according to me, myself and InI zeen... I swear I would look as young if I could eat ital vegetarian food tr888 (only)... And not be "forcefed" this manmade food! 22.19 now so I'm tired.