Oh today they say that it is the 31 of January

That means, that I would have to pay my bills. However, I can not be held responsible. For not paying them. Because other people made up completely false truths, about me. They lied and asked the mental doctors, to lock me up. They did this, because they knew that I was going to see my daughter. On her birthday the 16 of February. They don't want me to meet my child then, because I listen to Dancehall, Reggae, Hiphop, RnB and all good music. In my spare time. That to them, equals being crazy. They have a problem with that, because they do not understand the lyrics. They do not speak English and Patois, fluently. Like I do. So they only assume the worst and thinks that I am crazy. That is the reason, for me, living in a hospital. For two years, in total! When I lived with them I spent my time outside, with my friends. That turned into my bredda them, aka my family. Because in a real family you love eachother and accept the individuals for exactly, who they are. If you love somebody, you don't neglect them. You actually make them happy and listen. Rihanna can sing, because she use her voice like a normal person would. She don't scream or sound awful like most girls do. I know that, because I'm Slim Elly, long time still

RASTAFARI

Haha, two doctors just came to my room. We spoke for, lets say 15 minutes. After we talked, they asked me if there was anything they could do for me. So I told them, well tell "my family" that there is absolutely no problem with me. And I want chokolate. So they said that I should stay here, one more day. To prove myself and that they where going to look, if somebody had chokolate. Now I'll go and finish my painting of my man, my Jamaican baby daddy :)..

I'm not finished yet but:

I see that it is Shookryme...

Hahaha u don't know anything about me. Obviously. So somebody woke me up now. And told me I had to eat.

So I asked her for my phone and walked to the dining room. Then I got this. Vegetarian; Gray peestaces and fetacheesecream, with spinage, roasted potatoe n cauliflower.. It taste very nice. This is the most polite and loving man I ever met.

He sends hearts etc as response every time that I speak. So here is your proof. You that refuse to believe me. I'll just go fix some papers n do something real in my life, like listening to music and sleeping. Now I'm laying on the bed, chilling and drinking coffee... I so want nicotine. But Emil, the 20 yo, that was going to give me one box today. The problem is that I have been sleeping all day and night. Plus we are like magnets, so I don't want to go close to him. and he is 18 years old younger and I am in relationships already. So it don't work. So I just asked a nurse to bring nicotine to me.. I mean, listen to his voice. Listen to what he is saying. I mean, he makes me smile. All the time. But I don't dance, you could do that. I just wanna listen to music. Stopped dancing at 19... So, only got time for our love ❤ Hahahaha Love you bredda.. Now they tell me that there is fika to eat. So I said, but I just ate? Then she said yea I just told you incase you want. Well I want nicotine, so thats why I have to go there now ://

Hahaha, so the youth man walked up to me, when I was taking something to drink. He gave me this, so, I hugged him. But my hands accidentily touched the sides of his body .:D So he blushed and I said thank you.. Haha Jason know me the best, so he call me brawling n bad all the time ;)... Is just me, so what should I do? I should finish my painting now. A hundred miles in the air. Desso we deh, uzimi. For you I'll drink, I'll smoke. I'll die for you.

Me, Eleonor Kaaling InI, is just living my dream. You still don't zeet? Kiss my teeth. I've shown you all the evidence. you need in order to see it. Or maby you don't have eyes, to read with? Maby you don't have eyes, to hear with? You don't recognize Chris or Seysoh's voice? I'm sorry for making you wait Chris. It is not my fault that the enviouse Sweden decided to lock me up, now again.. My bredda (the man that gave me the nicotine). Just came to my room and talked with me. So I talked to him and told him waah gwaan. He asked if I liked the nicotine patches and said that he was going to play some cards and chill. So I said I'll finish what I'm doing. Emil is my friend and he lives in some town close by. The only problem with that is that I am married to two men already. Plus he is 18 years younger than me. But he looked on my painting of Jason and said that it was nice. I don't know why I'm writing here, as if I would have to prove what I'm saying to you. I know how everything is already and it had been years, since I found out. Everything you could know. Jason put the song on Youtube today, because you are my sexy man without Rifle.. You are the baddest sexiest man on this planet, so I need to share your song also. Sure Chris Brown is the most beautiful perfect man on this planet also. But they know that already. You come from a little island, called Jamaica. And both Chris and you Jason, you know that Jamaica a mi place n a Jamaica mi love... You know why also, so no words needed (L). A stress dem a try stress mi now, come a mi bed n a try give me medecine fi mek I tiad. Mi say mi no waah get tiad. Mi slept all night, mi slept all day. But a so dem waah mi live. I don't wanna live like that! But it's not me deciding over my own life and I'm 38 years old! Fucking disaster.. People are so braindead, living in a society that deprive them of living a real and happy life. You are not allowed to live in a healthy way. It is illegal, to say no to the state and their drugs. Because when you tell them the truth, and that yoy don't want anytging to do with them and their medicins. Then they lock you up and give you medicin, to sleep all of your time. Welcome to reality. I am not the only one this is happening to, these places are full of victims. See alot of them actually support themselves and their familys, by hurting other individuals. Yesterday an ambulance drove Emil here... And we will have to pay, for them locking us up inside here. Now this is the complete truth, or you don't have a brain to think with? I am locked inside walls, laying down sleeping. Only because other people having a problem with my existance. That is the God Damn truth. So I don't care, if you still don't believe me. Living in your fairytale. You shouldn't have grown up looking on Walt Disney movies. You shouldn't have continued to look on movies all your life. Since you can not understand them. You don't get that you should not try to look like a Barbie doll. You are a human! But what would I know? Me, that has viewed all of your life and destruction, from heaven. I who have been locked up in hell and a jail cell. God damn it. I who where a mummie, me that has been incarserated a bagga times. What would I know? I who eat medicin, to slow my brain down. Me that is healthier than anyone else, on this earth. Me that is a female. Me that is not allowed to say Jesus Christ. Here it is not legal to say Halie Selassie, because they don't understand anything about Rastafari. So me that know my Emperor, I'm locked inside. Babylon WILL fall, mark my words. I will not do anything, because I am no longer allowed to exist. So I can just write the truth, so that everybody can see it. You will die, wether you like it or not. You could have thought about that, before you left your creator. He who created heaven and earth. Or you might not even believe that you exist, in a world that have day and night? In a world where God, created light and darkness. So go believe your play pretend. Because I'm the crazy one, who lives in the actual reality. Sick yuh mima.

I love Him tr8888. He was a pretty little yute, in that video. Just 21 years old. Now he is 33 and all grown. But his new song has not yet reached Youtube, but it is great and he is in his black hoodie with his long black beard. In black and white. So it is a great video. Bottle Stoppa.. Seysoh nuh man! This is what I love, this is how I live and lived. All the time I can remember. But you where not borned then and you can not solve my riddles. You don't know God, my lord. So go live your lives and stop reading my blog. Mi no waah u here. Uzimi? No.. Poor you. I would never hit you Marshall. I love your music... U no dun kno everything already? Fuck you I'm the real Slim Lady Some people don't understand reality. Because their relative ate that apple. You should have never done what God told you not to do. Because that will make you, suffer the consequenses of your acctions. All of you will die. That is the realiity, we are living in. So it doen't really matter, if you see it or not. Because the great Babylon and all it's devils WILL die. Do I have to tell you that? Maby, it would be enough. If you simply looked at your reflexion. What has you done that is great? Me I have given away most things I ever owned, and regularly give away my income. Because hey, money don't mean shit to me. God is my Don. However I love to look at Vybz Kartel and I love Patois and my pretty little chokolate boy dem. So I have already decided how I want to live me life. You are the only one with problems. So go kiss your assess, buy your things. But realize that I don't want anything to do with it. Yea I want to meet my daughters, them that you teared from my brest. But if you want me to "press yuh button" in order for me to see them. I say fuck of. They know who created dem. It wasn't me, or their dads. It was God. Elise n Emanuella, will find that out. When they grow up. That we are EEE. Eleonor, Elise and Emanuella. The Holy Trinity. So wah u tink dem did separate us fa? You that can not think? KSMT You can kill thousands of us. I think that God have millions of children still. So bring your guns now, kill us all. I am seriouse when I tell you that that will only give you an eternity in flames. I've seen that too. So don't listen to me, because I need to be medicated. Believe that. I know. Is the information I'm sharing, to frightening for you to handle? I mean you've had several thousands of years to hear this already. But you Cruzifyed Jesus when he told you. You burned the "withes" when they tried to help you. I was burned, at a stake once. Don't remember the year, but does that matter? I have been dead, so many times. That I don't believe your world image to be true. I fliat through space, every night, when I close my eyes. Yet my opinion, is not valid to you. Because you are a bigg pussyhole. InI think that this boy, man, nigger or Michael Jackson. Is the prettiest and most beautiful artist on this earth uzimi? Shokryme a mine and he is all of those things also. How could a word be what defines you, as a person? Asked those without a brain. I'm not stuttering, becauae I don't even speak. I write how I feel. And if you give me your number I could speak the same words to you Star. Whatsapp mi ting deh caah mi no ave no money.. U kno ;) Oh gosh, I have to stand up and lower the head part of this bed :S

They finally gave me Vaseline. The medication, makes me look aweh.