A new day, Thank God

So I'm still in bed. The only problem with it, is that the pillow. Is full of air. It do not feel nice at all, with a pillow with air inside it. I mean every bigger town in Sweden have a psyciatric care- and they are full of people. Some in depressed and some is angry. Some is here, just because they want to observe them. See, they come in several times every night. Just to look on you. I remember how annoying that was back in Uppsala, because they also had a flashlight. They put in your face, to see if you slept. They want to have patients to "treat", because that is how they get their salary. I remember in Uppsala, one summer. Was nice, because they had a pretty Arabic youth man. Working there. He was very nice. We worked out, or I did, while they played Ping Pong. Then we walked to the town park, ate an icecream and sat on a sunbed. Talking about real adventures :D. So he was nice and did a good job. Hahaha Delafruz, just came in and looked on me. She saw that I was awake, on my phone. So she asked when I woke up. I told her that it was when one of them came and looked on me. So she asked when and I said, that it must have been around 6... Then I asked her what she is doing and she said thatshe is walking around. So I said, important job you have and laughed I know most of these "caretakers" by name.So lets see, which doctors I will meat. I hope that it is the same one, who told me to go home, last summer. Because he is pretty, zeen. Just like two of the young doctors I met yesterday. Why do you think I told them the truth? See if it would have been an ugly person, I would just had said everything they want to hear, But I have to finish the coffee now they came with and charge my phone. Because in this world we have so many bad products, that actually die!

Yuck, how discusting to eat now. Because people are talking with eachother here in the diningroom. And they talk complete bullshit. That's the reason for me loosing my apetite. They also came to my bed, 3 young girls. They said they wanted to test my blood. So, I told them that I wanted warm clothes. So we went n got it. Then we went to a room and I soaped my hands. Then they asked if I wanted to sit or lay? I said sit. So after that they took 7 bloodsamples from me. But it's good that they don't have to stick my arm, more than once. They where checking, so that my liver works, for Lithium and iron in my blood. I think they call it Hemoglobin? I feel sick, I think I need Nicotine. Now this room is full of people :/. So a better mi walk away, with my drinks. It is not my fault that they make me loose my apetite. I don't want Musli, sure I could eat some spoons of Fil, but nothing solid 廊. Now a girl sit at my table. So of course I don't look on her or speak a word. That would be completely pointless. Hahaha I'm the funniest Nigger alive, I swear. Just now some persons walked by me. And Sandra recognized me, so she asked wah gwaan, in Swedish. So I aks her if there is something to paint, so she said you know there is. Then I told her, but all the paintings in there is bad. So both of them laughed. See I'm just honest ans Swedish people are not used to that. Earlier I sat and spoke to the yute I met yesterday. He is 20, but look as if he was 28. He is mawger like Shokryme. But we have very interesting conversations. Because he has been in fostercare, since he was 5. Untill he turned 18. The first 7 homes he lived in was horrible. So I asked why.

Haha, see that yellow blanket there I got one night. When I was forced to stand outside the police house, in Uppsala also. They did not have time, to listen to my story. I had walked far, without any shoes or jacket. In October. I did that, because. In my house. A man, that was drugged out of his mind lived.. This day he ate Benzoes I suppose he also did Methadone. Because the hospital forced him too. Whatever, I sat down on the orange armchair. Then he stood right infront of it and spoke jibberish. I responded. So he hit me. I'm not talking about a bitch slap. He punched me, so hard with his fist. That my blood, poored down my eye. I still have that scar left, under my eyebrow. After that I went to the bathroom and peed. I remember sitting there, thinking about whatI was going to do. Then he came to the toilet and continued to beat me. So when he left, I quietly opened the window and jumped into the bushes underneath. I barely had any clothes and I did not feel welcome at my nabours or in my moms house. So I decided to walk to the police station. It was autumn and night, so it was very dark outside. And I didn't have any shoes, or socks. So the ground was feeezing.I neither had a phone. So when an ambulance drove by I decided to stop them and ask for a ride to the station. Yeah, I had to wait an hour outside, untill they let me in. They are police officers, so of course they are NOT nice. I mean, if they where human they would at leased have made me wait in the hallway or something. But because they knew, that I had a relationship with the man that jit me.They viewed me as crazy. Yeah, finally I was let inside. Then I had to sit in a coutch and wait for another hour. That make me vec, because we live in Sweden, so they don't have any real crime to solve. The work they are doing is completely pointless and believe me because I would know. So finally they investigate what I'm saying. Yea of course he asked me the same questions they always ask. When did this happened? How did you feel? How hard did he punch you? How you met him? Where you afraid? Etc etc.. So after about 20 minutes, when I answered all their stupid questions. They tell me that I should go to the hospital, because it look like my nose has been broken. But I told them nah, that's pointless. Listened I've lived in an abusive relationship for bagga years, so I know that this system is just a big circus. Non of them do a good job. They are not interested in solving no crime or helping anyone. All they care about is getting their own salary. Say that I've met 100 police officers and 40 court men. Out of all of them, only ONE was doing a good job and was actually interested and helpfull. This is the grim truth. At the hospital roughly 4 persons have been genuin, out of 70 I met. And yet you wonder why I don't like people? Jesus Christ. Even in your own family, say that 4 of them is good at times. But the rest is selfish and evil. Them it is something called friends, yeah. Say I had 200 of them. 20 is perfect an genuin, but the rest are selfish and fake. When it all boils down. So people is just a wast of space, since they don't know or understand anything. No, no, no. They are just wasting your time. Music is the only thing, that never failed me. Music and God. That is why it is very fortunate that I found two men that love music like me. We live in reality and you watch tv. Str888 Hahaha I love you.. Also Some men can actually think enuh.. Some men are just genuin and not full of shit. All people will not hurt you.

It is not my fault. But just because I'm such an interesting person, the say that they want to make me stay here. For three days. :S. I told her ghat I have flowers that need water and clothes, to be washed. So she told me that she could fix other people ti help me with it :/... As if I haven't lived alone and fixed Everything in my life, ever since :/.. She also said that she wanted me to try one medicin. So I ask her why? Because she do not believe that I'm talking to Chris Brown and Seysoh... For exaple. Just because most people is average no bodies, does not mean that, everybody is a nobody... Nobody can meat somebody, isn't that obviouse? No no no, they are to stupid to understand life and it's riddles. They actually don't know that some of us has a better life, than the rest. I told her that I am capable of doing everything, better than others. That is the reason for her wanting to give me medication to slow down my thoughts. Because I speak the truth and tell her, just how things are. I don't fit in in their slow society, because here you have to be average. In everything you do. So I told her about that pretty nigger named Kurt Cobain. So she smiled and said that she don't know if she agrees. I was talking about how my thoughts is not strange at all. Look on that painting behind you, he that painted it thought in another way than normal people. Look on Nelson Mandela, he was king and helped people. So of course the white people in his country, who didn't want to loose the power. Locked him up. Right now I'm locked up, because I am helping other people. Really, I swear. I am not sick, in anyway. But they still wish to keep me gere, because they want to onserve me. How can this happened? How could anyone think that this is fear? In Sweden, anyone that dislike anyone elses speach can call authorities and get them licked up. I told her that I don't have any contact with my family, but jus speak to my men and feiends. But see, in this place. That is a problem. Because over here, you have to follow the same pattern. Like everybody else. So they will never develop and will never reach new hights, with other ideas. That is why I must say that I am living in Hell. I told her that I could show the conversations I am having with them and she said she wanted to see. But then she just walked away :/.. They think that I am crazy, for speaking what is true. So mow I walked to her and showed her what we wrote this morning. She got all smilie and asked, but is that really him? I explained how I know that it is him. So she walked away.

I'm obviously not talking to myself. He was the one showing me how to use iMessage.. It's is not my fault, that he is lovable. It's not me that have made him an artist. It's not my fault that he has money. Nothing about him is my fault, I think that his mother and father, should be the one blamed, for creating such a perfect nigger as him. Seysoh nuh. As if my food don't taste better?

Vegan still, so it's ok..

So I ate now. That makes me tierd. I had to cover the meal in black pepper, to make it taste something. Because people nowdays use waay to little spices. In bed and I will sleep. A man gave me nicotine, tobbaco (white) snus. And it smells awful there in my pocket. But I want the nicotine, to become frass. However I would have to wait a while, before I use it. since both coffee and nicotine stopps the bodys absorption of Iron. And I just ate.

I just rang the alarm, because I wanted another pillow. But they don't have others she said.. This place suck. I will have to pay, for them decided to keep me for three days :S. They say that's it. Because they just want to see that I'm behaving myself :S. See this community and hospital is much in dept this year, so they need someone to pay. For them doing nothing. What a country with justice :/.. If you want to know something

See what the wall is telling me? You are waluable. Now if I would tell people, that my wall is telling me things. They would call and get me locked up :S. However if I would say the same thing, to a Jamaican man. They would tell mi; U no dun kno? Now you tell me, how I could ever believe. Than other persons than Jamaicans, are perfect? You tell me. That is why I love God so much. Because he both created them, gave them a language and madeus meet. 100% I say is true. Because God, is my daddy. Not human you. Stupid or what? Oohh no you don't understand the language I am speaking, because it has no name. I am not retarded like you, so my name is InI. RastafarI. Then I had to put in a dot, between InI and RastafarI. Because if I didn't do that. Then people would think that I am calling myself God. They would do that, because they classify me as sick already. They put me in variouse hospitals, several years. Now you tell me, why I should like people? They think that their acctions could be without, getting any response or consequense. They are not living in reality. This fake world, is nothing but your dream. Get a fucking mind of your own and leave me alone! Just now, they knocked on my door and told me that there is fika. I don't wish to eatanythin more, because I already ate a vegan meal and a banana. For breakfast I ate coffee and tea. But oh no, they want me to get fat. That's the reason for them to give me another meal three hours after that! They are completely crazy and have lost their minds! You know, some hours after that meal there. They will offer me morw to eat! They do that, at the same time. That other persons are starving. To death. So you tell me, why these industrialized people. Is not just a bunch of selfish and egoistic bastards? I don't know if they ever think a sesible thought, because they don't tell me. I need to breath, because air is my food. Every cell in my body needs air to survive. That is the reason, that I don't need food. Because God alone, puts energy in my body. Without him I would die and that is a proven fact. How long will you gullible creatires live for? 70 years in misery? Congratulation. Those that believe in God and put all the trust in him, we will live forever. But oh no, you don't wanna hear the truth. So you lock up us smart people and continue to live in your play pretend. Yea, so I'll just breath and light my spliff. Then I could go and drink coffee. I could carry it go back to the room. Because I dislike to hear people talking bullshit. Live in your play pretend. I know the truth. I haveseen the truth. And I swear that it's not you, InI a da King, so gweh. I am here right now, painting Jason Seysoh Shokryme. But mi no dun yet, so it don't as pretty as him at ghe moment, uzimi? I want water to drink!

I'm not done yet. I'm making art, that could sing: You full of glitter full of Gold. I love it when you inna my life n u in mi pussyhole.

How in this world, could I eat more?

But I guess it's better to give too much food to us Swedes and through it in the trash, than to feed the hungry?

Not done yet!

Not done at all!

Still alot left. Affi drink tea.Haha, one woman working here. Sat down on my table and asked me bag of questions. So I answer. After she say that I seem to feel good now. As if I ever felt bad?! People have no idea about me, a dat mi see!