Haha Awoh. Godmorgon.

Every day, several times a day. She stretch out her back. It's like we have the same body, because both of our upperbodies, arms and hands look the same. The legs kind of do too, only that she is way more fat.. Her hair look like mine but darkbrown and more curly. But her nose and upper face, look like her dads :).

I remember being 3 months pregnant, standing in Matthews livingroom one evening. The evenings in Jamaica is so very dark, especially when you don't have any electricity. But he actually bought a lamp and put it in the kitchen, that August. So he was doing something there. Haha I think this was the night before mi left. We had an argument, well I just spoke but he had a problem with not getting annoyed with me, during the conversation. I guess he got fed up and felt that I was complaining, when I told him how a vegetarian had to eat... Oh it was also about that I didn't want to use a gas stove, or a stove you would have to turn on by using a lighter... 

His car broke somehow, so he borrowed my creditcard and took the cab to another town. So that he could get the part he needed to fix it. Since it was in Mandeville, he made sure to get vegetables for me too. In Alberttown were we where living they had non.

   I guess I got annoyed, because he never asked me if he could buy the food. Remember thinking that I didn't want to use the creditcard again and I hate suprises. Plus I was 3 months pregnant and we had been living in that broken house for 3 weeks. I mean to reach the bathroom I had to walk through the bedroom, where his children slept and the wooden floor was broken where the door to the little room infront of the bathroom was. And when I reached the bathroom it was pitch black, suh I remember just praying to God, that I wouldn't miss the toilet, when I sat down. Underneath it was a stone floor.

Anyway. I had been looking after his kids that day. Or I was laying in bed, behind the mosqito net. Like I did everyday, because I couldn't bother to stand up for several reasons. Anyway.

   They went outside playing, in the rain.

Then after a while I realized that it could be dangerouse for them to be there alone. 4 and 5 years. So I went there and Shilah had fell in a puddle of water. So I told them to go to the shower. Then I went to the kitchen and filled a plastic box with water, from a barell that stood there. So I put it beside the bathtub and took a cup and poored it on them. It felt kinda aqward since Michael is a boy and Chyler does not come from my belly. But I mean I washed his hands, belly, back and feet. Shilah is a girl that think that she is grown, so she said that she knew how to do that herself. (She washed herself with a little towell and that's how their dad wash them too. Also my ex husband used to do that earlier) I helped her a bit and lifted her out. 

   Ohh Matthew built a pipe thing down to above the bathtub. That was great, only problem was that he had to drive to the other side of Atown and fill watercans and lift them to the barell on the roof.

No wonder he have abs... Yesterday he removed a car engine, because he is supposed to clean it and put it back :/. Jah kno... His body looks like Vybz Kartels but a bit more smaller, because he is younger. I really wonder about Adidjas hight, because he seems to be as tall as Matthew. 

 

Well obviously he makes people happy, so low him. The video clearly shows, that he had many fans. That could be a reason why they wanted him out of the way... (They don't like independent people)

And he is a hardworking Dancehall Artiste, so why would he ever choose to kill somebody?

I mean he was just frass/drunk n feeling his vibes. But the way he was able to deliver perfect quality music, consistantly. Writing lyrics proving that he is way more intelligent than most people. Having a bigg family to take care of. Creating videos. Selling products ETC. Makes it really hard for me to believe that he choose to kill Clive 'Lizard' Willliams.

Plus I followed the Jamaican news and the information stated there, did not make any sense. And I am well aware of how these societies love to cast blame on other individuals. They think that what you are saying, is what you are doing. 

   Seriously, I had dreadlocks for maby 3 years and I know for a fact that most people judge a book by it's cover.

I have friends in Jamaica that are more upper class also and they told me how Vybz Kartel was this Don, Gangster and killed many people :/. (When I told them of Vybz greatness). I would have to see it to believe it. Because I look on Vybz and he looks as if he is so fed up with being misunderstood. That he just stopped caring about how others percieve him. Then he figured, hey they are looking at me, talking about me. So I better give them something to look at and talk about. Big bad n brave is a great song.

When I hear it or see this video I just want to hugg him and say; forgive them cah dem no kno dem a do... I feel and see that he is a kind and sweet person with a great heart...