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I concidered it quite problematic a while, to express myself like how I wanted. Since people who don't understand Patois <the way I was thinking>, would interpret what I am saying wrong. And I have been locked up for that reason, (that other humans misscalculate what I mean). For me the meening of mean, is quite strange since they said at the university that mean, is to be mean and meen is when u mean something 😁. Jah kno.

I'm just a story teller, been good at coming up with unprocessed ideas, all my life. I mean for me it's all clear, when my mind is seeing things sober (or frass). But it's like others don't understand. Because they rather express themself like eachother and that is SOO strange. "Wah dat fa"?

I think that variety is beautiful. I can't understand people that try to make things look differently, than how reality actually looks. I mean (how was I supposed to spell that again)? Probably meen, but that look so very wrong. It is more beautiful to write mean, and in my mind, that look a whole lot better) People are supposed to make presentations and do things, that is not natural. It's like viewed as better, the stranger a thing looks.

I meen some people claim that you eat with your eyes and go out of their way to change the reality. I'm mainly talking about a chef here. But I mean how strange that humans actually concider it to be more beautiful,  the more paint and different styles of fabric, they put on themself. 🥳. I don't have to concider myself almighty, just because I don't share your opinions.

I am different because nature is my boss. I think it looks absolutely superior, "when ting look oo it stay". Hoow beautiful! 

See, I refused to eat finished products earlier. Since I viewed man-constructed products to be evil, unhealthy and completely unessecery. My last two statements are true, but sometimes it's just necessery. To act in a way that you don't want... 

A mother is concidered to be normal and not strange, as she is brushing her childs hair/giving it hairstyles and telling it how beautiful it looks. When she is wearing different things/clothes! How aweful. Remember how I saw a fucking 4 year old putting on her mothers lipstick, because she wanted to look pretty 😢

   I will do everything I can to tell the child that it is beautiful, as she is completely natural. Because if you do what the other people in this world is doing you get depressed and insecure kids, that will never feel good enough. 

   Im will be soo pretty frm di parent slim n tall. Plus my complexion gets pretty when I live under the sun and the daddy colour is prettier when he stay out of the permanently burning sun! So I think it's a good match, because look how beautiful Bob Marley was. 😃🥰. Yes Sizzla I am using my brain, but a bun dem same way.

(Strange that I never thought about that it is Capleton in this song 🖤)

I myself, never ever would have stepped one foot into school, without makeup! If it was an emergency, like I would get a D, if I didn't go there. Then I would have put on mascara, eyeliner on my top eyelid, foundation and lipgloss/vaseline MINIMUM. I thought that I needed new clothes very often and that you became very pretty with glitter and tight jeans! Hehehe what an awful thing. I coloured my hair regularly and brushed it every day and the truth is I felt so very ugly.

   I was looking for some type of validation from men and my friends. That is horrible!

I don't want to get too personal, but attention seeking almost destroyed my life. Nowdays I don't give a fuck, about what others think. But I'm kinda old, so I'm supposed to say that the opinions of others do not affect my inner feelings. 😅 Crazy dem crazy.

How strange. That is a song by Emelie Autumn. A very pretty girl. Because she is skinny and do her own thing. I don't know her but from what I've seen we are kinda similar. Emilie Autumn- How Strange

The thing is that I don't always explain what I mean and rather say wah mi a pree. Uzimi. That is a wonderful word, because it is different and feels nice to say. However, if I would translate the meaning to Swedish it would be; förstår du. And that is something that young people say. (Filler words unecessery to say). But as I've said previously; I love Patois. Because it is such a freedom of speach. You can't really say anything wrong, all thoe they have their sayings. But they all understands me, no matter what I say.

Yea, I do not think that my child will be Bob Marley but I refered to him since his parents where Jamaican and European. I never thought that I or Bob Marley actually was God, but I believed that we both are influenced by our belief in God. A whole lot.

To me it is so strange that anybody could miss that part.

As you are locked up, your mind starts to think about everything and make connections that are not there, in reality. ESPECIALLY if you are forced to eat medicine= leagal drugs.

Curt Cobain was soo beautiful, he looks like my ex 😭. They lived in the same way and died of the same cause. Suicide. 🧐😱 I really really love this man. Because he had lyrics and looks like a perfect soul, to me... Haha, he was singing that he don't have a gun. No I doo have a gun.... And six months later, he shot himself 😥. Horrible humans, not saving his life. Yeah Heroin is horrible like the other drugs, all thoe it is not poisonus, like the factory created "medicins". But you WILL die, if you use too much. Since your organs will stop. 

   Remembering how my ex layed on the ground, in the forest. As he just used a shot of Heroin. (I tried to make him enjoy the rush for some time, but then I woke him up. Because I didn't want him to die). Then we walked to his home in another area and he had no problems or pain walking then! Because the Heroin, worked as a medicin, on him. But if anybody, who is not used to doing drugs, would have taken the same amount as my ex. You WOULD die and eventually he too died. I told him that alot of times, but he felt as if he knew what he was doing. 

I slept in his place friday to saturday. Then I saw a vision of a black soul emerging from an open grave. So I rushed back to the bed where I was sleeping and tried to wake my man up, since the soul was standing in his bedroom, just beside the drawer! So he turned on the light and the shade dissapeared. My man told me, that there is nothing standing there and we slept. 

As we woke up the following morning I looked at the wall beside the bed. I put a wooden cross there earlier. But now somebody had put a reflex on the top of the cross. I asked my man if he put it there, but no, both of us was sleeping and I didn't do it. (We smoked weed the night before). The reflex was shaped like an angel.

   Six/7 days after that event, my man died on the floor. 3 meters away from that cross. (I don't know at which time he died, but the police called me around 12 and told me he was dead).. I texted him at 11, so I hope he had time to read that text.. Since I did ignore him, that entire week! 😭

That is the God damn truth! How could anybody tell me that weed make you stupid and not see the reality, for just what it is?! 

   But Marijuana make you think and see things, on a level, that others can't. So it is not good you use it, living in this world! You're not the only person alive, memba!!

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She was soo pretty, because she was skinny and smart. Plus black. That's how the other side of me is too. I actually sang this song on youtube, crying, 9 months after Ravi died. But they deleted that account, since they claimed I was not suitable. I was very dark and low, when I was doing those videos. But I think that the biggest issue was me just wearing a top... As if anybody sensible would care what you are wearing!!! YOUTUBE ARE A BAG OF *******. It is not my fault, but they even removed me playing Moonlight Sonata, with my eyes closed! How am I supposed to learn that again?! I don't even have a piano here! People in General are just destroying for everybody who is "better" than them!

As I woke up this morning, I thought a whole lot like I normally do and maan mi memba that ****** named Craig David. I thought he was pretty, during some teenage year.

Some say that I think too much. I have been loaded and locked up, because doctors called me manic! When infact, I was just very alert and enjoyed my life. Yes, they call it to be manic, when your brain starts to think in that way. You actually start to study or think about the meaning, behind everything. Down to the letters. Haha. SURE your mind gets exhausted and you will see things that are not there eventually. So, it is very good to stop it, before it reaches that stage.

 

Some people actually thinks in another way, than what we are thought in school.

This is my lunch 😀. Wonderful and nice. I drink tea with it, because I felt like it, all thoe I know that the body can't absorb the Iron from the vegetables, when I drink it. But I mean I eat two bloodclaat iron pills a day now. Soo what? I put peanutbutter on the biscuit, because they think that I am "maga", in this country and I'm eating for two this year...

This man is so smart! I mean I-N-T-E-L-L-I-G-E-N-T but I don't remember in which song you sing that Addi...

I am brown, concidering I'm supposed to be white. A suh dem seh 🤣. In Jamaica some call me browning. Look how beautiful the ruggs are, they come from my dad who had them maby in 1990...

 

Gage u look like mi x hùbby, fi true. U no relative wid di Woodstock r Lewis family? U no dun kno InI love when you are using your voice, deep like that.. Same suh wid Addi zeen. JPS... U soo remind me of Kartel Gage...SSL

 

Yet people don't understand why the Jamaican government locked Adidja Palmer up. even when they did not have anything but fabricated evidence.

This is what I've loved the most about Vybz, Glad u figured Beng Beng. I love the video to the same riddim Kartel, still Liza clda replace 😋 I really have a problem with those type of girls.Them that think that they are hot and speak without making any sense! She is waay too short and to much of a snake, for me to even concider liking her.

Girls who wear makeup and tight clothes ARE so ugly. Thank God I've stopped wid di Babylon foolishness! As I was young I liked how Christina Aguilera is freaking oùt. I thought that Lil Ķim was pretty same way. Now I think that every girl, trying to be something that they are not. Is the ugliest!

I dislike musscles same way //Maga n skinny 💙

This is vegetarian brown beans and they taste nice. I will start eating stricktly vegetarian/vegan and Ital soon. But I do not want to grow any more, because then I could become the same hight as Kartel. So.. 

I don't think that I would ever stop growing, if I feed myself with Ital food and I don't want to become a gigant.. Haha I've seen Movado close in Sweden 3 times. Even did deh a Cassava enuh...