Packing my stuff and cleaning 💚💚💚

Thank God. Now I finally been able to do what I need to. See I prefer to take things little by little, or some would call it slow. But that's just how I prefer fi gwaan. (Like to do it) 😀. I just have to say, that those dates with peach. Taste wonderful. Everytime I eat them, I'm in awe and just have to thank God for creating wonderful fruit. That I love to live of.

Anyway it is interesting how I could come into periods, where I feel tierd all the time and then are able to change that. When I push myself extra hard. It is great to go outside and walk, because you will get more energy then. I think it's about more oxygen, getting into your brain when you exersise.

So then I just chill/eat and drink water, for a while. And afterwards I decide to do things.

   Earlier I waited on that moment that I would feel more awake, but it never came. So when I decided to push myself and do things anyway. It worked to do it and when I was done with that I decided to continue untill I felt it was enough 😀 

I know from experience that you can push yourself very hard, but I don't have a reason to yet. I need my rest, because it is not good to over exhaust yourself. In my condition.

So I will eat the avocado, drink the water and mi no mus nyaam di date dem? 😃 (That mean that I would need to eat all of the dates also). See Patois is very much fun to speak, at times. But this summer I got annoyed, especially when little children speak it, all the time. As if that would be a normal way of speaking. I mean if I do it it's ok, since I know proper English also. Because it's not like I would speak ghetto Swedish, to a child.

Sure it is a language the entire Jamaica speak. But if they go to school, they learn English. Just like how it is in Sweden, regarding that.

I actually reasoned with myself alot when I was there, looking from the outside in. And to my understanding, it is the weed that cause people to expect everybody else to understand you. All when you don't make yourself clear. I mean when I was younger, I thought that it was facinating. How they could talk to eachother, so bluntly and still seem to understand eachother.

   Now as I'm older I realize that it's speculations and that it is better to speak your mind. To make yourself understood.

That is a big as problem with weed smokers, because they prefer to think by themselves. So how do you think that you could have a working relationship, without communication? I mean sure I prefer to write, because when you speak. People tend to get effected by their emotions, they feel in the moment, more.

But I'm older than young now, so I've learned to controll them before I speak. Thank God. I guess they call it maturity, but I still prefer to write than discuss and I don't know if that is childish. I don't see it.

But I just saw a picture of Movado meeting Skeng, and that is very childish. I can't believe how long I have been into Dancehall music and Vybz Kartel 😋.

Better days are coming. Thank God 🥰